Spending a ridiculous amount of money to make my boy feel special on his birthday this weekend. I’ve never spent so much on an individual on his/her birthday. But as my staff 1 girl/coworker friend pointed out, he deserves every bit of it. He’s so great. He’s so sweet. He’s a real keeper.
This boy is seriously the best. I texted him that I’m having a tough moment with this audit being an organizational clusterfuck. And his texts had me laughing so hard that I was literally keeled over from laughing so hard. I’m so lucky to have him.
I feel like I’m leaving a part of me behind. I knew I’d have to make sacrifices for my career. I just thought those that cared about me would be supportive. My lead partner of the team I’ve been on for over two years has already written me out of his life. Even before I left. It hurts. He’s the one that gave me the blessing to pursue this opportunity. I’m not doing this to leave him, I’m doing this for my career. Why does he find it necessary to make me feel guilty for doing so? And now for the end of audit dinner, they’ve put it on a date that I probably won’t be able to attend because its shortly before the issuance date of my new client. I feel disregarded. I feel undervalued. They were a second family to me and I can see they don’t regard me in the same way. It hurts my heart. All for my career, I suppose.
Sorry I’ve been MIA. Last week was the first real test of my new relationship. I think he and I survived well. Plus its busy season.
I still don’t know how this is going to work when I move to NYC, but I’m going to make it work.
I gave him a key to my apartment. I tried to play it off as NBD. And it was more out of necessity than out of affection, but it happened.
We were talking on Sunday about being firsts for each other. For example, I took him to make his first s’more. I have a handful of his firsts. And he was saying he wanted to be a first for me too.
He’s been way more firsts than he knows. Than I will tell him. But important ones:
He’s my first romantic valentine.
He’s the first man I’ve given my key to.
That’s a lot.